Kid Cudi has checked himself into rehab for depression and suicidal thoughts.
The rapper announced on his Facebook page that he entered Monday, saying
he hasn’t felt at peace for years and made the decision to get help for
himself, his family, his best friend/daughter and his fans. That he
felt ashamed and as if he were living a lie before seeking help. That
without treatment, he said, he might have harmed himself:
Its been difficult for me to find the words to what Im about to share
with you because I feel ashamed. Ashamed to be a leader and hero to so
many while admitting I’ve been living a lie. It took me a while to get
to this place of commitment, but it is something I have to do for
myself, my family, my best friend/daughter and all of you, my fans.
Yesterday I checked myself into rehab for depression and suicidal urges.
I am not at peace. I haven’t been since you’ve known me. If I didn’t
come here, I wouldve done something to myself. I simply am a damaged
human swimming in a pool of emotions everyday of my life. Theres a ragin
violent storm inside of my heart at all times. Idk what peace feels
like. Idk how to relax. My anxiety and depression have ruled my life for
as long as I can remember and I never leave the house because of it. I
cant make new friends because of it. I dont trust anyone because of it
and Im tired of being held back in my life. I deserve to have peace. I
deserve to be happy and smiling. Why not me? I guess I give so much of
myself to others I forgot that I need to show myself some love too. I
think I never really knew how. Im scared, im sad, I feel like I let a
lot of people down and again, Im sorry. Its time I fix me. Im nervous
but ima get through this.
I wont be around to promote much, but the good folks at Republic and my
manager Dennis will inform you about upcoming releases. The music
videos, album release date etc. The album is still on the way. Promise. I
wanted to square away all the business before I got here so I could
focus on my recovery.
If all goes well ill be out in time for Complexcon and ill be lookin forward to seeing you all there for high fives and hugs.
Love and light to everyone who has love for me and I am sorry if I let
anyone down. I really am sorry. Ill be back, stronger, better. Reborn. I
feel like shit, I feel so ashamed. Im sorry.
I love you,
You’ll remember Cudi lashed out at mentor Kanye West and Drake last
month for not working with him and using others to write songs. ‘Ye
responded to the rapper at a recent show, telling him to “Respect the